Being a Writer

Within the last few years, it has come to my own attention that, first and foremost, I am a writer.

As much as I love creating music to share with people, and as much as I enjoy sharing said music with the aforementioned masses, it is even more important to me that the words bound to the music make sense and resonate with people. So, whether I continue in music or not, I will always and forever continue writing; why? Because it's what I am.

At this point, I don't really have much else to say. Just wanted to come dash off a quick post and get that out there :)

Website website website!

All thanks to my beautiful and incredibly talented sister, Heather Luxion, Lead Designer at Tres Hermanas (www.tres-hermanas.com), I now have launched my new-and-improved Annaluxion.com Music Site!

So? What else is there to do now, but check it out! Followwwww the link! :)

Let's go!

Aha!

I have recently re-discovered my love for physical activity. So much so, that it seems to be rather an addiction. :D

For the month of July (and continuing on from thence), I have made it my goal to find one physical outlet/workout every single day. Mostly it consists of biking places to run errands (which certainly helps cut down on fuel costs! -- lovely!), swimming laps in the pool at the apartment complex where I live, or going out for a half hour run before breakfast.

Since Thursday, I have added dancing! into the mix, which holds both great promise and great fun, though it's definitely a little more on the costly side of things, since there are lesson fees and cover charges, and all that jazz. But overall, with the health benefits plus my general love for dancing, it's completely and totally worth it.

So! It is in this spirit that I pursue both physical and emotional rebalance, and I'm realizing more and more just how important it is to focus not on how my body looks (something with which I have struggled in the past), and instead to focus on how my body feels as I am more and more driven to be healthy and happy, and live a good lifestyle.

And let me tell you, I've been feeling pretty darn great! :)

seriously awesome.

this is seriously one of the coolest things i've ever seen anybody do. and definitely one of the most unique.

check it out!!


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first written november 7, 2009

i'm holding together
the pieces of a memory
i thought was intact.

i'm grasping at the sandy straws
that are falling through my fingers
and laughing at my failed attempts.

today is not a day i feel good about myself
maybe tomorrow? ... next week?
i don't know.

i'm not asking for God to forgive me
i know He already has
i just can't forgive myself.

i just need to go to bed
i just need to let it go
but it just keeps coming back to haunt me.

i don't like falling asleep
crying, hiding
and feeling all this.

i don't like words
they say too little
but they mean too much.

i don't like emotions
it's too confusing
it just... hurts.

i don't want to talk about it
i don't want to think about it
i wish it wasn't even true.

somebody please take all this away
all of these memories
all of this pain.

the nights i cry myself to sleep
are not good nights, but
they happen more than i like to admit.

ashamed
unreasonable
and just... sad.

i don't feel like a bad person
i feel like a good person who did badly
and that's the hardest part to get over.

and part of me will never let this go
but part of me is asking,
... can i just have a hug?