"dear love" - a poem

dear love,
here's what i look like today:
sad eyes, broken smile
and my heart still beats in my chest
but i left it behind
not on purpose, it's just how life is
you know how i get
when i have to leave you
i wish we'd had one more day
at least, a real chance to say good-bye
i guess we just have to go through it
however hard it may be
however hard it is
you know, i love you more than my life
dear love,
here's what i feel like today:
cold inside, and rainy
shaky like a leaf on a thunderstorm's breeze
like the trees are falling as i climb them
and i can't get up again
life's too tough again
i have no appetite, but i keep eating
like it's my job to make myself sick
like if i'm sick it means something
that you have to come see me
dear love,
why is the sun shining?
it's not fair today
please go away, giant ball of burning gas
or whatever you are
damn you, happiness
just give me a minute
i'll work myself back to you
i guess... maybe
dear love,
you know, i love you more than my life
but today i miss you more than ever
love, anna