so this is it, huh?

well hello. this is my first post on my first real blog. it should be exciting, so why isn't it? perhaps it is because i have posted so many times on an old livejournal that was read only by my two sisters (and not that frequently, for why should they read something when they can go directly to speak with the source?), and then later on my blog on myspace, which was really only read by my two sisters, my cousin, and perhaps one other person (occasionally).

so this is my first real blog. and i suppose another reason it isn't very exciting is because i really have nothing to write about. usually i don't have things to write about when i first sit down to post, but i can't think of anything this time. maybe it's because i've been working on-and-off on this post for the past few days... maybe it's because at the moment i'm not meant to write anything incredibly profound or anything... maybe it's just not the right time.

the only problem is that i really want to write something! perhaps i will describe my surroundings... no that's boring. maybe i should just end this post. but i want to write something! i think that's one of my personal issues that i have to work out - half of me rationalizes that there's no point in simply blabbing on and on and on about things that aren't relevant or that make no sense, but then the other side of me bangs my proverbial forehead with my proverbial hand and says, 'it doesn't matter! this is your creative outlet, and you need to exercise your mind every once in awhile, otherwise it will decaaaayyy...'

and that shuts my rational side up. but then it just happens again and again. i mean, i'm sure it happens to a lot of people, but it's one of those things you feel like it only a problem you have, that sort of thing.

oh! i just thought of something that i've been meaning to blog about for awhile, so maybe i'll put it in a separate post so that these don't get too long and tedious. yes, i think i'll do that. so for now, i will sign off, but hopefully i will post something that's a bit more meaningful...

hopefully.