sad face. e_e *blogs about it* happy face. ^_^

i am disappointed. i was really looking forward to having my cd done by neby... well, neby is two days away, and i have two songs done - one i can't even get at, because it's on the school computer and in a file format that's not compatible with my own computer, and one that's okay, but not quite up to par... bah.

i have basically been working on making a cd ever since i started playing guitar and writing music. people always encouraged me, and that was great! except that i felt as if i was constantly letting people down every time the same old situation played out...

"anna! how are you? how's the cd going? do you know when you'll be done?"

"i'm good - busy... i still haven't found somewhere to record yet, so i'm still working on that..."

and that would be that. every public function, every Baha'i function, every time i saw anyone who knew that i play guitar and sing and write music and was trying (still am, obviously) to produce some kind of cd or album, every one of these situations would, without fail, bring this topic up. and i would still feel as bad every time i had to squirm in my shoes and answer the questions as honestly as i could bring myself to be. i always feel like i got these looks of "wow, you sure are taking your sweet time about this, huh?" whenever i would tell people i was "still working on it", and that would drive me even further into guilt-mode.

that's when i realized that i was still just sitting on my rear in my bedroom, strumming my guitar and waiting for an agent in a helicopter to zoom past my window, somehow hear what i was doing, and swoop through and carry me away to be famous in california.

dream on.

so then i really DID start working on it. i searched online for recording studios, i went to a couple recording studios (disastrous. never let them wake you up and make you sing early in the morning when you know your voice needs time to wake up too), and i called people. most recently i've been talking at (not to; they don't return my calls...) someone who works at a recording studio near me, hoping that i'd be able to get in there for some recording time and whatnot.

more dreaming, apparently.

so now i'm full-on going to do it myself, thankyouverymuch! - i am in a recording class, i get at least six hours of time in the studio every week, i know how to run the equipment, and i have an awesome friend who can improvise on the ukulele (how rockin' is that?!) for accompaniment and such, and i have improvisations of my own as well to go along with whatever else is in my head.

so sadly, my cd will not be done by neby. but look for it before Ayyam-i-Ha for sure!! (and, should something somehow delay its release even further, i am completely and entirely determined to birth this technological little baby of mine before we get too far into march!)

count on it!